It's been quite some time since I last posted. I guess I have been keeping myself busy. Funny how it is that I really don't feel like I have done anything, accomplished anything, but time just flies by.
Not too much to update. I'm enjoying my work, I enjoy my current life style. I am learning to cherish every moment -- practicing cello, watching foreign artistic films... feeding fish every morning, trying new recipe every once in a while, reading newspapers. Pure independence and little bit of solitude. If there's something amiss, I would dare not mention it. To ask for anything more would be greed.
I might have written this before, but I am going to a Catholic church now, very regularly and pretty religiously. It is my mother's wish that I become a God's child. I am not against the religion, in fact, I can get along quite well. I don't have to agree with it completely to gain inspiration, motivation, and direction from it. In fact, I have met many good people and it is humbling to know how different -- how faithless -- I am.
I will be baptized. I will probably never be able to believe fully like others do. There will always be the agnostic side of me. However, if it makes my parents happy and myself at peace, I don't see why I should not.
It is raining softly outside. In it, I find god. Not the God that others worship, but the God that gave beauty to the nature. The tranquil God who rendered the world beautiful. I find him in the now-changing colors of the trees, in the ray between the clouds, and in the sound of splashing rain. It is beautiful.
Let it rain.
Not too much to update. I'm enjoying my work, I enjoy my current life style. I am learning to cherish every moment -- practicing cello, watching foreign artistic films... feeding fish every morning, trying new recipe every once in a while, reading newspapers. Pure independence and little bit of solitude. If there's something amiss, I would dare not mention it. To ask for anything more would be greed.
I might have written this before, but I am going to a Catholic church now, very regularly and pretty religiously. It is my mother's wish that I become a God's child. I am not against the religion, in fact, I can get along quite well. I don't have to agree with it completely to gain inspiration, motivation, and direction from it. In fact, I have met many good people and it is humbling to know how different -- how faithless -- I am.
I will be baptized. I will probably never be able to believe fully like others do. There will always be the agnostic side of me. However, if it makes my parents happy and myself at peace, I don't see why I should not.
It is raining softly outside. In it, I find god. Not the God that others worship, but the God that gave beauty to the nature. The tranquil God who rendered the world beautiful. I find him in the now-changing colors of the trees, in the ray between the clouds, and in the sound of splashing rain. It is beautiful.
Let it rain.